Reflection

Sitting here reflecting on the last 2 semesters and the 2 ahead, I can’t help think about when Mary went to Jesus and told him the wedding party was out of wine. He looked at her and said “my time has not yet come.” Instead of doing nothing, He did a big something (John 2:1-10). I have gotten my feet wet in the seminary thus far. These 2 semesters ahead will send me diving head first into the work, the mission. I’ve considered God’s mission for me which has gotten me here to begin with, that and a 4:30am scriptural reference from the trash truck driver (Isaiah 50:10). I have a vision, I’ve seen it before but not in the same capacity. I witnessed it when my heart was not opened up. I played along, played nice. Now I feel driven more than ever to be that person. 99.9999999% of people don’t call the ambulance because they are having the best time of their life and want to celebrate with us. Veronica couldn’t face Jesus because of the shame she lived with for twelve years, but she ran into the crowd to touch a thread of His garment trusting that it could be enough to be healed (Mark 5:25-34). Jesus didn’t avoid the sick, marginalized, disenfranchised, or outcast. He met them where they were (‭Matthew 9:10-12). He told them to look up, lifted them to their feet at the same time lifting them up to His Father in Heaven. How much physical suffering is rooted in spiritual suffering? That bullet wound may be cooling off now, but I promise the turmoil inside was heating up for much longer. Help me, Lord, to breathe peace into broken hearts, help me reach those who are hurting in a way that will inspire them and glorify you. If it’s your will that they receive a message from you, please use my lips as the conduit. ‭Psalms 139:23-24 NIV‬: “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Help me let my light shine bright from the lampstand, remove the shade of my past failures, and please forgive me for who I was. Bless my family and strengthen us for the road ahead. Here I am, Lord; send me in Jesus’s name. Amen. #itsokaytonotbeokay #resiliency #paramedic #smashthestigma #itsokaytobenotok #letyourlightshine #reachout #police #prayerchangesthings #PrayWithMe #jesussaves #GodsPlan #Godisgood